They are both literally me.
I always thought that everybody thought this anyway. Just to different degrees though.
These are called intrusive thoughts and they’re pretty common.
I used to panic so much over this sort of stuff. Call the thoughts “evil” and try to banish them from my mind by repeating that word. I thought it was a schizophrenia thing but it turned out to be normal!
Bahahahah if more people knew about intrusive thoughts then I think less people would feel crazy.